Do you ever have one of those days where right from the moment that you open your eyes you just know that it’s going to be a bad day?
I am notorious for letting things bubble away until eventually, I snap, and today was one of those days. A few things have been eating away at me recently and this morning one email just tipped me over the edge and put me in a bad mood.
I was holding it all together until one of our directors came in and asked how I was – I was fine. Oh, you look awful pale – oh I do? Queue the tears. I mean like a river worth all came spilling out… I even think I snotty cried, and that is not attractive.
Honestly… it really helped. I’m the sort of person who cries when they’re angry and today was no exception to that, but sometimes you just need to let it all out and cry. It completely cleared my head, re-focused me and got me on a straighter path.
I know that it’s not a particularly healthy way to deal with my emotions and I’ll probably never learn but it definitely reminded me how important it is to talk to someone – especially someone who will tell you that you’re not being stupid and let you blubber away.
It reminded me how important it is to surround yourself with good people and to always be honest with yourself because I’m made me really think about some things that I’ve probably been too afraid to admit to myself – and the answers to some of those things.
I’m only 23 and I don’t have my life together (in any way shape or form) but it’s so important to do things for me sometimes and not spend all my time trying to make other people happy and appease others.
I have so many exciting things coming up and I’m not letting one aspect of my life (my job) get to me… but isn’t it super embarrassing when you have a full-on breakdown in work?!
I had some work to do when I got home this evening, but it’s time to get into my comfies with a cup of tea and read a good book. Thankfully I’m seeing a few of my friends tomorrow after work which will be a nice way to sort of rebalance myself and boost my mood.